Like the flickering light from the ceiling fan above me
Like the soft brush of air moving around the house
And thunder speaking loud and clear in an ancient language that everyone knows.
As I drift off to sleep, I hope I have one of those good dreams
Where I can float and fly and swim through the air like a fish
I crouch down and then spring up into the air,
Sailing up as if I were a paper airplane;
Then floating gently back down.
Such springiness seems so natural to me, as if I’ve always been this way –
but something in real life prevents it from being activated
something like gravity.
For a few months now I have been too busy to enjoy creativity. I can’t see when this fast-paced lifestyle will end so I need a different way to reach out to people. I deal with autism challenges every day, so there shouldn’t be any shortage of blogging material there.
I have decided to change the direction of my blog to simple sharing of my autistic thoughts and feelings. I guess the reason for sharing is to feel less alone in my strange little world, and to hear from others who understand. And sometimes, all kinds of people will understand, not just the autistic.
Childhood What is it meant to be? Innocence Trust Falling in love with the ones who love you the most Exploring and Discovering Mimicking and Learning Feeling proud and excited about every accomplishment Being silly and sharing laughter Feeling optimistic, like ‘the world is your oyster’ Spending time every day simply enjoying motion, sounds, sights and textures Having a friend or sibling to play with
When you’ve not had the childhood you needed, it can be healing to start giving it to yourself today. As much as you are able, allow yourself to be the happy child now that you wanted to be then. It’s not only a great way to enhance your healing – it’s also a way to discover who you are. Try it. Please share some of your own ideas. I’ll share some I have done.
1. Splash in a creek and throw rocks in the water. 2. Get out the pots and pans and other kitchen stuff to make music. 3. Make paper airplanes and other paper toys. 4. Fling jello onto the wall to see if it sticks. 5. Skate around the floor on socks to some favorite music. 6. Pick wildflowers (weeds) and put them in a little vase or glass. 7. Make lots of fun sound effects when you’re driving. 8. Make a fort and read a book inside it by flashlight. 9. Squish mud between your toes. 10. Run a stick against a fence and feel the clickety-clack.
That was fun just listing ideas. Here are some more ideas: 1. Put a straw in a glass of milk and blow bubbles. 2. Display your artwork on the fridge. 3. When you make a list, instead of checking things off, give yourself shiny foil stars. 4. Shoot rubberbands to your heart’s content. 5. Sprout a bean in a little cup of dirt. 6. Walk backwards to the mailbox.
While allowing yourself to be the child you wanted to be, you’ll also be the parent you needed. Rejoice with your child inside. Praise every little step of life.
What does it take to get out my paints? It takes empty hours with no constraints, Quiet surroundings and clean, neat spaces, Room to explore my artistic graces, No distractions of any kind, And most of all, a willing mind – Willing to try and fail, To be patient with small detail, Accepting whatever the outcome, Even if it’s humdrum; Such perfect circumstances are rare, Which means I need to begin with prayer.